Letting Go of My Little Sidekick

K2 has been my faithful companion for almost five years.  Minus the two therapy trips in the recent years (a total of four night) and the hospital stay for the Ketus’ birth, he has never left my side.  Because the church in charge of Paczki’s preschool was absorbed by a larger congregation, the cost to send K2 was more than we could afford.  Our regular expenses, debts, and school loans did not leave any money to pay tuition plus the other mandatory expenses.  Don’t you just love Catholic schools?  We did not qualify for state programs.  The best solution was to keep K2 with me until he was able to attend Kindergarten.

I returned to work almost a year after I had K2.  So, for the past four years, he has been in the office with me.  As he grew older, he became an important fixture in the shop.  His toys are scattered all over the office.  Right now, his “job” is to go in the back to get my parents when I need them.  He is my little messenger.  K2 loves his job.  When I was pregnant with the Ketus, K2 helped me as much as he could.

I knew the time would come when he would have to go to school.  I was okay with it until it became a reality.  I thought I would have until August to get used to the idea of my little guy not being around me.  Well, life is funny.  The school he will attend offers a summer program.  At first, I wanted to keep my boy with me.  Then, he began to show signs that he was done with the office.  He gets bored and wants to be in the back of the shop.  This is not a good way to grow up.  FullEclipse and I enrolled him in summer camp.  K2 will have Paczki to keep him company.  This is a great thing for my boy.  There will be special field trips (freaking out about that!) and other activities which will prepare him for school.  Paczki had a leg up coming into the school since she knew basic stuff.  K2 has no had any training.  Add the complexity of the dual immersion program, and he will be behind.  The camp works with kids to get them ready.  It is a great opportunity for growth for him.

But it is happening too soon.  Camp begins on Monday.  My boy will be gone from 9:00 in the morning until 4:00 in the afternoon.  The reality has not sunk in yet.  I suppose it is a good thing that it happened now.  I will not have the whole summer to think about it.  Plus, the kids get bored with me in the office.

I do not know what is going to happen on Monday.  All I know is that letting go is so hard.  I will miss him with all of my heart.  The Ketus will too.  At least, I get to give my baby undivided attention.  Three kids require a lot of work.




Worst Blogger Ever!

Last time I was here, I was about to enjoy time off before I had to take the last class for my major.  There was a post about a trip to Ohio and then this place went silent.  This was not my intention.  A lot of things have happened in a year.  When I wrote those posts, I was pregnant with the Ketus.  It was a rough pregnancy.  But, my wonderful little girl, was born healthy in October of 2015.  Being a mom to three kids is not easy.  In the middle of the pregnancy, I still had to function and complete school.  FullEclipse traveled for work during this time too.  It was a cluster fuck.

But I am back!

Back to rant.

Back to say what I need to say.

I hope I was missed.