Almost a year ago I was in Chicago. It was a quick trip to test my nerves. It was a huge accomplishment to be able to get on the airplane. I felt on top of the world.
And here I stand, a year later in another rut. Still gaining weight and getting back to old habits. I cannot let my anxiety win. But it is so hard. The truth is that I miss Dr. Inception like crazy. It feels like we still had issues we needed to address. Do not get me wrong, Dr. Absolution is great. I am not quite there with him. Maybe this is just me. Perhaps I just need to grow the fuck up, get over my anxiety, and lose weight.
For now, I weep.
