One Year Ago

Almost a year ago I was in Chicago.  It was a quick trip to test my nerves.  It was a huge accomplishment to be able to get on the airplane.  I felt on top of the world.

And here I stand, a year later in another rut.  Still gaining weight and getting back to old habits.  I cannot let my anxiety win.  But it is so hard.  The truth is that I miss Dr. Inception like crazy.  It feels like we still had issues we needed to address.  Do not get me wrong, Dr. Absolution is great.  I am not quite there with him.  Maybe this is just me.  Perhaps I just need to grow the fuck up, get over my anxiety, and lose weight.

For now, I weep.