It has been almost eight months since I began yet another journey in my 20+ year battle with my weight. The first four months went so great. I lost 27 lbs. Then one of my sisters-in-law came from Chicago to visit us and meet K2. Things in the food department went bad. It isn’t anyone’s fault but my own. I regret nothing because we all had a good time. It was nice to bond my Chicago family. I think I had more interaction with my sister-in-law in a week than I ever did with my ex sister-in-law. It was refreshing to say the least.
So, after gaining 6 lbs, the battle to lose them and to get back on track has been so difficult. I am at a loss as to what to do. I gotta fit in exercise somewhere in my schedule. Did I ever mention how much I loathe exercise? I count calories, but I always end up overeating during the weekend which does nothing but make me gain.
Adding to this anxiety is the fact that next December, I have a wedding to go to in my home country. I haven’t been there in over eight years. I was skinny then. The pressure is on.
FullEclipse just wants me to be happy with how I look. I feel like crap because I am nothing like the woman he met. He says that he loves me no matter what. Still…I should look like I did many years ago.
I am tired of the roller coaster that is my weight. Something needs to snap again. This time is difficult because I don’t have the magic pills to make me less hungry. No appetite suppressants make this journey harder!
Tomorrow will be yet another new week. How long will I keep this “restart” my diet crap?