Valentine’s Day 2012 – Doom Yet Again??

I don’t know if I have mentioned this before, but FullEclipse and I are doomed when it comes to celebrating.  Two years ago, I got food poisoning on our Wedding Anniversary.  No work for me for two days.  We thought it was an isolated incident.  However, last year on Valentine’s Day, I got food poisoning again.  This time it took me away from work for a week.  The lovely illness also led to a ton of morning sickness.  It was bad.  FullEclipse is not one to celebrate Valentine’s Day.  One of our biggest arguments has been over Valentine’s Day.  The fact that he sent me chocolate covered strawberries, a balloon, a romantic letter, and took me out to dinner was a huge deal to me.   It should have ended on a very positive note.

We did not celebrate our Wedding Anniversary last year.  We just went out to dinner.  The dinner just happened to fall on the day we got married.  It worked.  This year we are going to Vegas.  We will not be celebrating anything.  The trip happens to fall on our Wedding Anniversary weekend.  Let’s see how that ends.

Anyway, just because we had a small success, that does not mean that our luck would change.  I told my husband that I didn’t want to celebrate Valentine’s Day this year.  He was surprised, but understood my reasons.

Can you guess what happened anyway?

I ended up getting food poisoning from only God knows what.  FullEclipse spent a day and half taking care of the children and I.  It was very romantic.

He also gave me a present.  Granted, I had chosen it and we bought about a month ago.  At least the thought of my present cheered me up.

Maybe we will have luck next year.





Four Years Old!!!


My first baby turns four years old today! 

I can’t believe so much time has passed. 

I miss my little baby girl.

It seemed like it was only yesterday when we thought she would arrive on Super Bowl Sunday.  But, much like the K personality, Packzi had other plans.  She arrived on Fat Tuesday.  To celebrate her Polish roots and in honor of Fat Tuesday, FullEclipse nicknamed her Paczki.

Over the last year, my little one has grown so much.  Gone is her obsession with dinosaurs.  Along came a love of Princesses and Super Heroes.  The little girl who had trouble speaking cannot stop talking and asking all kinds of weird questions!  She is on the go.  Always talking and always questioning everyone.  Paczki, much like her mommy, has grown to love Starbucks and shoes.  Just like her daddy, she has become quite comfortable around video game systems.  She learned how to turn on Netflix to watch her favorite shows.  Go figure!

Now the horrible threes are gone, we all look forward to what a four-year old will be like.  It will be a blast and a ride full of laughs and lots of tantrums 🙂

Today we will have a low-key celebration at home.  We have a small cake and two of our friends are coming to celebrate with us.  This weekend has been a whirlwind of celebrations and tons of spoiling that began on Friday with cupcakes at school, a visit to Disneyland to meet the Princesses yesterday, and a lunch with a special treat this afternoon.

This weekend was all about Paczki and she loved it.  Sharing the spotlight with a brother is no fun so I wanted to make sure that her birthday would be unforgettable.

Let’s see what happens next year.  I am big on throwing big parties for my kids.  I did a petting zoo for Paczki’s first birthday and a dinosaur theme party for her second birthday.

Maybe she will grow to love Warner Brothers Cartoons.  One can only hope!

Happy Birthday Baby!

Mommy loves you very very much!!!

August 27, 2011

The house is quiet.

No crying, screaming, or whining.

Just silence!

This is the perfect time to post!

KittyKatt is (or should it be are?) playing outside.  I am enjoying a nice cup of decaf coffee while K2 is asleep (finally!) on the swing recovering from a cold.  It was a rough night, but let’s hope the worse is over.  It sucks to see your children be sick.  FullEclipse calms me.  He tells me that it will okay, that it all is part of growing up.  I am trying not to freak out.  If all goes well with the cold, the family will be celebrating Packzi’s birthday tomorrow with a Princess breakfast at my least favorite place in the world: Disneyland.  She has been looking forward to this breakfast for a month now.  I cannot wait to see her reaction.

This post was supposed to have been posted on the day K2 was born.  Better late than never!


August 27, 2011

Today, just eleven minutes after midnight, I gave birth to a beautiful baby boy.  He was named after a Twilight character and someone from the show J.A.G.

K2 came into the world weighing 9.4 lbs. and measuring 20 inches long.  Just like his sister, this little guy decided to come into world on his own terms and whenever he wanted.  K2 did not want to wait until Tuesday, August 30th to come out.

I began laboring on Thursday the 25th.  FullEclipse and I had returned from another OBGYN/ER visit at the hospital when my contractions began just after 11:00 p.m.  After trying to be brave all day Friday, I went to the hospital at night.  It was then that the doctors told me that I was dilated three centimeters.  The c-section needed to happen as soon as possible.  I went into freak out mode.

What about my panic attacks on the operating table? – I got medicated!

What about Paczki? – She was fine and happy to be a big sister.

Is K2 okay? – He was fine.

The whole procedure is a blur.  The anti-anxiety medication has made some things hard to remember.

But I remember his cry.

I remember my husband.  There is no other time where I feel more in love and connected to him.  Nothing brings us closer together than hearing our kids first cries.  At that moment, nothing else matters.

I remember how my heart grew.

I remember crying.

It was a crazy pregnancy full of emotions, doubts, and a sense that I could not bring K2 into the world safe.

We made it.

Everyone is tired.

If I could summarize this experience with one song, “Here Comes the Sun” by The Beatles says it all.

Here comes the sun (doo doo doo doo)
Here comes the sun, and I say
It’s all right

Little darling, it’s been a long cold lonely winter
Little darling, it feels like years since it’s been here
Here comes the sun
Here comes the sun, and I say
It’s all right

Little darling, the smiles returning to the faces
Little darling, it seems like years since it’s been here
Here comes the sun
Here comes the sun, and I say
It’s all right

Sun, sun, sun, here it comes
Sun, sun, sun, here it comes
Sun, sun, sun, here it comes
Sun, sun, sun, here it comes
Sun, sun, sun, here it comes

Little darling, I feel that ice is slowly melting
Little darling, it seems like years since it’s been clear
Here comes the sun
Here comes the sun, and I say
It’s all right

Here comes the sun
Here comes the sun, and I say
It’s all right
It’s all right



The first month of 2012 ended yesterday.

Where did all the time go?  It seems like I am living in a parallel universe where times moves in weird patterns.  Some days are super long.  There are times where the weeks go by so fast.

One thing, however, remains true every day: I AM EXHAUSTED.

K2 was born in August and I have not had a good night of sleep since two days before my delivery.  The ER trips did not help my sleep at all!  While the baby has made great strides as far as sleeping a few hours a night go, I feel like I have to make up for all the time that I have stayed up.  FullEclipse tells me that since the baby gives me five or six hours a night, I should not be sleepy all the time.  What can I say?  It just feels like my body wants me to crash a whole night without waking up.  Yet, I cannot bring myself to do it.   FullEclipse offered to take the baby for a night, but I said no.  I can’t do it.  Something tells me that I would wake up anyway.  Since my husband works, I figured he could use the sleep.

Paczki has been amazing.  When she stays home from school, she comes to my bed and cuddles with me.  Every now and then, I catch twenty minutes of sleep while K2 sleeps and Packzi watches TV in my bedroom.

These little naps do not help at all because I wake up so tired.  Oh well!  Things will get better.

There is so much that I want to blog about, but I don’t seem to find the time at the end of the day.  One of my 2012 goals was to blog more often.  I am going to try to find the energy and time to do it.  I love this outlet!