May, June, and July have been so busy in the wedding and engagement departments.
Three acquaintances and a family member got married. My brother-in-law got engaged which means we will have a wedding in Chicago or Omaha in the future.
These events made me think about the wedding I had with FullEclipse and how things could have been.
I make no secret that I was married before. The wedding was gorgeous, but the marriage did not last.
When I met FullEclipse, I had no intentions of ever falling in love again or even walking down the aisle again. Everything changed overnight. We got engaged very quickly. Our intention was to have a big wedding in Chicago in a few years. We did not want to rush anything. Even though this would have been my second marriage, FullEclipse wanted me to have the wedding of my dreams. But, things worked out very differently. FullEclipse and I just couldn’t wait to be together forever. We were also trying to have a baby and decided that the best course of action was to get married. I had a suspicion that I was pregnant by our wedding day anyway.
So, one day we woke up and said to each other, “let’s get married!” That was it. No big party, no big celebration, no professional pictures, nothing that screamed, “Big wedding!”. I bought a blue dress and off to the court-house we went on a Friday afternoon. My parents were the only people who were invited as witnesses. The guy who married us was about 18 years old and wearing torn jeans. He looked like such a kid. It was just the perfect way for us to say, “I love you. Let’s spend the rest of our lives together!” By the way, my hunch was right, I was pregnant with Paczki.
To this day, our love and devotion to each other and our family remains just as strong as it did when we got married. Our bond is stronger. I love being married to FullEclipse.
But, these celebrations have me thinking. As much as our wedding was special, I feel like we should have had a bigger celebration. My in-laws missed everything. My plan is to renew our vows in a few years. I am paying off all of our credit card debt first. I will have my big celebration with my husband and my two children.